09/11/2022

Dear Diary,

In the last entry I said, "Who the fuck is even going to read my blog?"

I just realized that I don't really care. It isn't about other people. It's about me. At the end of the day, I am going to write regardless so what does it matter. It isn't as if I'm looking for praise or critique here. It's more of a compulsory thing with a slight case of reverse voyeurism.

I launched the Kickstarter this morning. It's almost funded. A lot of people have said that they are proud of me. I'm happy to have the support.

I played "The Letter" some more last night. I think one of the big appeals to visual novels that I have completely overlooked is that connection with well written characters. I don't know why it wouldn't be applicable to VNs the same way that it is with a regular novel or film but it hadn't really crossed my mind outside of creating my own characters that I became/become attached to.

It's as if the characters become friends. *sigh* am I lonely...?

I might need to go back to the hospital again. I woke up in pain yesterday and it hasn't stopped.

I've tried baking soda, calcium carbonate, hot lemon water, tea, a hot bath, massage, and yoga... it still hurts.

I haven't felt like this in almost two months and whatever this problem is, is the reason that I began the elimination diet to begin with. The thing is... I didn't eat or drink anything out of the norm. I can't explain what caused this and I just want the pain to stop.

2:20PM